I want not to worry about who likes me or who doesn't
I want to know the end of my story
I'm not concerned with with his story,
not even my history, right now!
All I want to know is
am I going to make it past this hurdle?
Do I come out with my hands up in victory,
praising the Lord and the obstacles he sent me?!
Am I on my knees, thanking you or begging you still,
am i refusing you or giving all the Glory
I want to know the end of my story!
If i knew the final episode
the part of where I'm rich, married and old.
The episode where I survived all the things
the devil has thrown at me,
when my character is complete and happy.
the time when temptation no longer has a hold of my
decisions
The point when there are no more divisions...only God.
The part right before I'm ready to go home.
If I knew all this
would I still worry about my problems down here?
If I just knew the end and saw my picture crystal clear,
me smiling in heaven with god standing there
would I still care?
Well lets see to quote my big sister really quick from a part in this poem "Temptation are from the devil, Trials are sent by God". So Moving past that about this poem which strikes me and probably some others out there is we want to know who were going to be, what kind of job were going to have, how many kids do we have, did I ever get married. For me this is especially worrying to me, and as my family knows I'm a huge worry wart, but I don't know where I'm going and where I will end up at the end of the day. Yet my worry is losing who I am now, now I know every day we change we become someone new. Yet we don't change so dramatically from one day to the next becoming happy to sad in all one night. When we lose something as a friend or a family member we do change and it varies from person to person, but that still doesn't happen overnight it happens gradually. I'm in college and I worry, that afterwards I get a job (getting the job isn't the bad thing) yet I worry about that job changing me. I love my family and the way that we are, a crazy bunch of hooligans who are all of the 4. I don't want to become someone else, someone worse or cold.
After that also everyday we have to make decisions, for example with coincidence my mother and I had a discussion last night about me growing up. Which is weird, I still feel like that I'm going to be back home every year doing the same old thing, my parents won't ever get old, I'm going to be in my teens for the rest of my life. Yet I'm growing up and there isn't anything I can do about it but become more responsible, and I don't have to lose who I am as long as I remember who I am.
Matthew 6:25-34
" 'That is why I tell you not to worry about everyday
life-whether you have enough food and drink, or
enough clothes to wear. Isn't life more than food, and
your body more than clothing? Look at the birds. They
don't plant or harvest or store food in barns, for your
heavenly Father feeds them. And aren't you far more
valuable to him than they are? Can all your worries add
a single moment to your life?
And why worry about your clothing? Look at the
lilies of the field and how they grow. They don't work or
make their clothing, yet Solomon in all his glory was not
dressed as beautifully as they are. And if God cares so
wonderfully for wildflowers that are here today and
thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for
you. Why do you have so little faith?
So don't worry about these things, saying, 'what will
we eat? What will we drink? What will we wear?' These
things dominate the thoughts of unbelievers, but your
heavenly Father already knows all your needs. Seek the
Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and
he will give you everything you need.
So don't worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow
will bring its own worries. Today's trouble is enough
for today' "
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